100 Pounds to go

Tue, 30 Dec 2003 03:46:21 GMT

Damn emotional overeating. It gets me every bloody time. I get into a spat with my husband and what do I do?? Have a mini-binge on a Hershey's bar, half a PB&J sandwich, and a handful of dill pickle potato chips.

I was hungry. I was pissed. Why, Why, WHY do I turn to food for comfort?

x-posted to my journal

Tue, 21 Oct 2003 18:36:39 GMT

I am still here. I am still losing.

My step-dad is in hospice and my life is kinda crazy right now. I am reading posts when I can and trying desperately to stay on plan.

I am down to 250.

I am thinking of shaking up my diet plan, but have been too tired to think about what I want to do.

More soon.

The math of it...

Sun, 10 Aug 2003 15:13:17 GMT

I want to lose 2.5 lbs per week.
This means I have to cut 8750 calories per week,
Or 1275 calories per day.
Given my BMR and lifestyle, my max daily calorie level is 1500.

If I want to have more food, I have to exercise more. Whether achieved by less food or more exercise, my daily calorie deficit must be 1275.

My current goal:
250 by 9/7

Long time no write

Sun, 10 Aug 2003 14:43:15 GMT

So I took almost two months off. Between the new job and my stepdad being diagnosed with Stage IV cancer, things have been, well, chaotic at best. Inactivity and too much "healthy" fast food has driven me up to 261.5. Up six pounds from where I was when I last posted.

I am back to square one, and okay with my gain. Everybody has bumps in the road.

whew...

Wed, 18 Jun 2003 01:15:28 GMT

I am still on plan. I am rather proud of myself because the last week has been super stressful. And the stress isn't gonna be over any time soon.

I think my department is going to throw a going away party for me. I am flattered and a wee bit nervous. A party means cake. And since the party is for me, there isn't much I can do to get out of the cake situation. I am going to budget my calories very carefully tomorrow so that I can have a small (and I mean small) piece. Several people know that I am trying to eat healthy, so I am hoping there will be fruit afoot.

You know what the best thing about summer is?? That's right. Watermelon!

Lab Results

Sun, 15 Jun 2003 01:57:32 GMT

	My Results	Normal Values
Triglycerides:	104 mg/dL	<150 mg/dL
LDL cholesterol:	121 mg/dL	<130 mg/dL
HDL cholesterol:	39 mg/dL	>40 mg/dL
Total Cholesterol:	175 mg/dL	<200 mg/dL
VLDL:	15 mg/dL	<30 mg/dL

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My "bad" cholesterol is okay and my "good" cholesterol is not so good. The prescription: weight loss and loads of cardio exercise.

My stress test was negative, too.

I am thrilled that my ticker is not suffering from the effects of the disease which is ravaging my family.

Have I mentioned that I am scared of storms?

Thu, 12 Jun 2003 01:25:23 GMT

Food

Food:
Okay. I have to stop eating as soon as I come home from work. I eat dinner at work and then come home an eat a second dinner. Part of me wants to blame the schedule (which is over in 2 days!), but another part of me realizes that I before I started this diet I eat a lot of food, all day long.

Total Calories: 1834

Exercise:
I have become attached to my work walking. There is something to be said for taking a few minutes and stepping away.

I didn't walk after work. It really is just too hard to work 11 hours and then walk. I *have* to start working out in the morning. The raging storms haven't helped.

Total Steps: 5761

Tomorrow
-noting more than a light (<125 calories) snack after work
-Walk. Walk. Walk.
-workout in the morning (for real this time)

Damn late night eating

Wed, 11 Jun 2003 03:31:19 GMT

Late night eating (eaten @ 11:20 pm):
1/2 cup scalloped potatoes
11 oz. soy coffee latte
2 tbs. tuna salad

I was not hungry when I ate tonight. I ate very quickly and felt extremely full (almost uncomfortably so).

I cannot seem to make the appropriate food decisions when it comes to late night eating. Tonight I felt compelled to eat. I didn't feel overly hungry, but felt like I *had* to eat something.

calories consumed: 432
total calories for the day: 1870

I took the steps!

Wed, 11 Jun 2003 01:57:50 GMT

Breakfast:
1 cup 7 grain cereal
1 large egg
1/2 medium tomato
1 pat butter
8 oz. V8
12 oz tea (w/ 2 tsp. sugar and 2 tbs. soy cream)

morning snack: 20 grapes

Lunch:
2 slices wheat bread
2 tbs. tuna salad
1 cup mixed lettuce
11 oz. Chocolate Soy Latte

afternoon snack: 10 baby carrots

Dinner:
1 and 1/3 cup tabouli
4 oz. grilled salmon
8 oz. V8

evening snack:
medium banana
3 bites of vanilla yogurt
1 slice wheat bread
2 tbs. tuna salad

total water intake: not enough

Food:
I forgot to take enough snacks today. I thought I was going to head to the vending machine, but I was saved by my friend Tracy keep me pumped with water.

Total Calories: 1438

Exercise:
Lots of walking at work. I managed to get in 4 ten minute walks. I had planned to walk the bridge after work, but a big storm came through.

I took the steps not once, but twice today. I was winded, and my knees ached a bit, but I took the steps!

Total Steps: 6662

Tomorrow
-stay focused
-Walk. Walk. Walk.
-workout in the morning

gotta have a plan, man!

Tue, 10 Jun 2003 21:49:00 GMT

My Exercise Plan:
1st 4 weeks
* WATP (1 mile), at least 3x per week -- preferably in the morning
* Walk around the block during work at least 3x per week
* Weight Training at least 2x per week
* Walk the bridge after work at least 3x per week
* Report my progress weekly

Start: 06/09/03
Revise: 07/07/03

Tue, 10 Jun 2003 16:33:56 GMT

walking around the block, in the heat, in a business suit. it sucks.

will it get any easier when I lose weight? i saw several thinner ladies out walking in full suits and they didn't seem to be sweating like I was.

sign

Grr!

Tue, 10 Jun 2003 14:42:22 GMT

Did I get up and work out this morning? No.

I stayed up too late reading. I didn't go to bed until after 2:00 am.

I have got to get focused on exercise. Every day. No excuses.

*slipping on my shoes to head out for my first "break" walk*

down an inch and solidly in 22-ville

Tue, 10 Jun 2003 03:05:09 GMT

It is measurement time, and I am down an inch just about everywhere.

Left Arm: 18
Right Arm: 17
Bust: 47.5
Waist: 42.5
Hips: 52.5
Left Thigh: 32
Right Thigh: 32
Left Calf: 18.5
Right Calf: 18

I went shopping for suits for work this weekend. I am happy to report that I am squarely in a size 22/24. Yea!

I struggled on the weekend, but I am back in focus

Tue, 10 Jun 2003 03:00:34 GMT

Breakfast:
2 slices wheat bread
3 slices tofurkey
1 slice soy cheese
1 cup mixed greens
1/2 cup broccoli sprouts
1 tsp. soy mayonnaise
1 tsp honey mustard
8 oz. V8
20 grapes
12 oz tea (w/ 2 tsp. sugar and 2 tbs. soy cream)

morning snack: rice milk ice cream bar

Lunch:
2 slices wheat bread
1 fillet of breaded and baked halibut
1 cup mixed greens
1 tsp. soy mayonnaise
20 grapes
10 baby carrots
12 oz tea (w/ 2 tsp. sugar and 2 tbs. soy cream)

afternoon snack: medium banana

Dinner:
1 slice wheat bread
2 tbs. tuna salad
8 oz. V8

evening snack: none

total water intake: 64 oz.

Food:
I wasn't terribly hungry today. I had a major craving for Chik-Fil-A, but I was able to overcome it.

I managed to solve my mayo dilemma. I found a soy mayo that taste just like the real thing. Okay, not total the same. It definitely wouldn't hold up to a potato salad test, but it is suitable for a sandwich.

I also found a yummy soy cream. It is Silk's French Vanilla flavor. It makes my assam tea taste a little weird, but it is quite delish when added to a chai tea.

Total Calories: 1519

Exercise:
I tried the 1 mile WATP tape today. I did it first thing this morning, and I must admit that it went a long way to help me wake up. I am going to start working out with the 1 mile every morning.

Total Steps: 7163

Tomorrow
-stay focused
-Walk. Walk. Walk.
-take the steps at least once.

Can we say promotion?

Fri, 06 Jun 2003 01:55:09 GMT

Whee! Goodbye Sales Specialist. Hello Sales Consultant!

Breakfast:
16 oz. V8
2 slices whole wheat bread
3 slices tofurkey
lettuce
1/2 broccoli sprouts
1 tsp. mayo
1 tsp. honey mustard

morning snack: 3 strawberries and 10 baby carrots

Lunch:
1.5 cups Tabouli
11 oz. Soy Latte
20 grapes

afternoon snack: 10 baby carrots

Dinner:
1 square of spinach mushroom lasagna
20 grapes

evening snack:
2 slices of bread
1 cup lettuce
1/2 cup broccoli sprouts
2 tsp. mayo
1 tsp. honey mustard
2 slices turkey ham
1 slice cheese

total water intake: 64 oz.

Food:
Tabouli -- a delicious low cal lunch. Yum!

My calories are high. I am sure it is the ten hour days. No worries. I assume my new position in one week and then I can kiss this horrifying schedule goodbye.

Total Calories: 1858

Exercise:
I walked through my breaks and lunches again, but not as much as yesterday.

Total Steps: 8112

Tomorrow
-Work on those bloody calories!
-walk during my breaks and lunch
-design a weight-loss plan ala jesslite

Joy!

Thu, 05 Jun 2003 15:00:53 GMT

I got the promotion!!

When in doubt, walk

Thu, 05 Jun 2003 02:55:22 GMT

The food was not the best, but I was too busy walking to care.

Breakfast:
12 oz. V8
1 small banana

morning snack: soy yogurt and 8 cherry tomatoes

Lunch:
2 slices whole wheat bread
3 slices tofurkey
1 oz smoked gouda
lettuce
1/2 broccoli sprouts
1 tsp. mayo
1 tsp. honey mustard
11 oz. Soy Latte

afternoon snack: 10 baby carrots, 6 strawberries

Dinner:
2 slices of bread
1 cup lettuce
1 trout fillet
10 broccoli flowerets

evening snack:
2 slices of bread
1 cup lettuce
1 trout fillet
4 broccoli flowerets
8 oz. V8

total water intake: 32 oz.

Food:
I think I have found 2 problem areas. Cheese and Mayo. I have been using the appropriate portions, but they are just too calorie laden. I think that since I have learned to effectively manage portions on this two items, I need to put the both of them on the back burner. I am thinking of looking into diet mayo, but I refuse to participate in the blasphemy that is diet cheese.

Total Calories: 1891

Exercise:
I walked. And walked. And then walked some more. I walked during all three of my breaks and for 15 minutes during my lunch. I also walked after work.

When I looked at my pedometer when I finished my last walk and I was 9953. I walked just enough to take me to 10,001.

Yes Virginia, I broker 10,000 steps today!

Total Steps: 10,001

Tomorrow
-Keep my calories between 1500 and 1600.
-walk during my breaks and lunch
-smile. a lot.

I didn't want to post this, but I know I have to

Wed, 04 Jun 2003 02:02:24 GMT

Breakfast:
12 oz. V8
1 cup Honey O's
1/2 cup reduced fat milk
1 small banana

morning snack: blackberries and raw broccoli

Lunch:
2 slices whole wheat bread
4 slices tofurkey
1 oz smoked gouda
lettuce
1/2 broccoli sprouts
1 tsp. mayo
1 tsp. honey mustard
11 oz. Soy Latte

afternoon snack: 20 grapes, cherry tomatoes

2nd afternoon snack: 20 grapes

Dinner:
10 inch spinach wrap
1 cup mixed greens
1/2 cup broccoli sprouts
3 slices tomato
6 oz. smoked turkey
3 oz. havarti cheese
1 tbs. dijon mustard
1 tbs. canola mayo
1 cup Chicken Florentine soup
6 oz. soy yogurt

evening snack: none

total water intake: 32 oz.

Food:
I exceeded my calorie limit two days in a row. I refuse to allow this situation to escalate

Total Calories: 2305

Exercise:
No exercise. Again.

Total Steps: NA

Tomorrow
My goal for tomorrow is to make a plan to avoid the mistakes of today.

Binge!

Wed, 04 Jun 2003 01:59:45 GMT

It wasn't as bad as it could have been. and I have learned a very valuable lesson: never let myself get hungry.

Today was the first day of my new ten hour work day. I packed a lunch and several snacks. I didn't pack a sandwich for the evening because I thought I had enough snacks to hold me over until I got off of work. I ate breakfast at 7:30, lunch at 12:30 pm and then snacked intermittently until 8:00 pm. Needless to say I was famished by quitting time. Not only was I famished. I was famished and had to make a trip to the grocery store.

I thought I would be able to handle the situation. I thought I would be able to get a half wrap and small soup. But I didn't. I ate an entire wrap, a bowl of soup, and a soy yogurt. The wrap was healthy, but huge. The soup was healthy, but huge. The soy yogurt was a normal portion, but too much considering the amount of food I had already eaten.

My total calories ended up at 2305. Not a horrible binge, and I am still within my "weight loss" zone. But the calories are not the problem. The problem is that I ate until I hurt. I ate to the point of physical discomfort, and then ate some more.

I believe that I ate the way I did tonight because I let myself get to the " I'm starving" point. I let myself get so hungry that I lost all sense of reason.

I cannot let this happen again. I have to change whatever is inside of me that makes me overeat.

There is a down side to getting that promotion

Tue, 03 Jun 2003 21:54:00 GMT

Clothes. Specifically, business clothes. I am currently held to a "business casual" standard. To be honest, the standard has always been a little bit lax for me. For lack of a better way of putting it, my performance affords me the ability to bend the rules. Not major rule breaking, but the toleration of my birkies and long denim skirts.

Promotion to consultant means true business attire. Suits. Professional Clothes. It means a wardrobe that I do not have. I did not want to buy clothes before I had lost a significant amount of weight.

A fat lady in a business suit isn't usually an attract thing.

well crap!

Tue, 03 Jun 2003 16:18:32 GMT

It just occured to me that I left my pedometer clipped on my pants at home.

today is really not going my way.

*praying...please let me get the promotion...please, please*

this is gonna be a rough day

Tue, 03 Jun 2003 15:40:50 GMT

I have a killer headache. I didn't exercise this morning. Headache or not, I am gonna have walk tonight.

Apparently my motivation took the day off

Tue, 03 Jun 2003 00:31:53 GMT

Not the best day.

Breakfast:
8 oz. V8
1 cup Honey O's
1/2 cup reduced fat milk

morning snack: none

Lunch:
2 slices whole wheat bread
4 slices tofurkey
1 oz smoked gouda
lettuce
1/2 broccoli sprouts
1 tsp. mayo
1.5 cups Chicken Tarragon Soup

afternoon snack: 20 grapes, 11 oz. Soy Spice Latte, 1/2 banana nut

Dinner:
1 cup pasta salad
1/2 blueberry muffin
6 oz. soy yogurt

evening snack: none

total water intake: 32 oz.

Food:
I was over on my calories today. I was done in by pasta salad.

I learned my lesson about cereal in the morning. It just doesn't last very long. I think I am going to have to reserve cereal for breakfast on days when I know I can have a mid morning snack.

My water intake was very low today. I drank maybe 32 oz. Dangnabit, this is the one area where I am having consistent problems.

Total Calories: 1977

Exercise:
I didn't exercise at all today. Nada. Zilch. I have no excuses either. I just didn't get out there and do it.

Total Steps: 5630

Tomorrow
- Drink at least 64 oz. of water
- Don't eat or drink anything after 10:00 pm
- Walk!

WooHoo!!

Mon, 02 Jun 2003 21:45:11 GMT

I was runner-up in weeklychallenge.
Yea!

Mental Note:

Mon, 02 Jun 2003 15:28:19 GMT

Cereal for breakfast does not go very far. I ate at 7:30 am and was starving by 9:30 am.